Thursday, May 28, 2009

deep breath now...

OK. So. I know I haven't been posting regularly for a while.

Like, a LONG while.

Here's the thing. This is my weight loss/Zumba/vegan blog right?

Well, the Zumba thing is going great. I've got lots of classes but there's not much to say besides, well, I have lots of classes. :) I could bore you with details on what songs I'm doing, what routines are off of the ZIN volumes and what are my own choreography or what I'm using from other great instructors...OK, actually, that wouldn't make such a bad post I guess...but maybe just to other instructors? And to think that this time last year I was busting out with mad posts about how I was going to Convention. What am I going to write this year? How I am NOT going? Trust me, I'm fully capable of whining on and on and on about that subject...but you do not want to hear it. You're welcome. ;)

The vegan thing is not going so great. I was doing just peachy keen until just after Thanksgiving, and then it all went to poo. And as much as I hate to admit it, I'm only just starting to get dedicated again. My vision, my ideology never changed. I just got lazy. Super lazy. And gee whiz, I have ten pounds to show for it, back from the land of the lost. Goodbye for now, size 8s.

Which brings me to the last thing--the weight loss.

Oh. My. Head.

OK so I knew I needed to go back to being strict vegan, because once I allow myself all kinds of animal products, I dive head-first into cheesy pepperoni pizza with an ice cream sundae for afters. Gross. Going vegan isn't just good for the earth, good for the animals, and all those other reasons I took up the cause in the first place--it helps me be mindful of my food choices and what they do for my body.

So I'm working on that.

But it's so hard!! And I would think that at least trying to be mostly vegan with, like, the occasional bite of cheese deliciousness here or there would at least, like, help. And last week, for the whole week, I eschewed all forms of sweetener, natural or artificial, from the full-on nasty high fructose corn syrup stuff to the meek and mild agave nectar, and just ate whole, fresh stuff. And maybe even drank a, ahem, cleansing tea every night. And then allowed myself some Tofutti soy-cream sandwhiches on Sunday and gooey nasty (delicious) brownies on Memorial day. And then weighed myself Tuesday morning.

Did. Not. Lose. A. Pound.

Have I mentioned that in that same, aforementioned week, I taught twelve Zumba classes? TWELVE?!?!?

What the hell is wrong with me?!? What the hell kind of person can eat like that and teach twelve crazy one-hour classes and drink frigging flushing tea and not lose a freaking-ass pound?!??!

Do I sound frustrated? I'm frustrated.

Back a few weeks ago I saw a doctor and told her I was feeling weak and sluggish, and a few other things. She threw out some scary possibilities that I thought she might say but really didn't want to hear, like "thyroid" and "hormones" and "anemia". She suggested I get some sun for the Vitamin D, and take some iron supplements.She took my blood and suggested I come back for my physical next month and let her know how I was. I missed my appointment and now I have to wait, like, forever, for another one. But in the meantime I'm going to try something. I have a plan. Here goes.
  • Take a daily supplement regimen, including a vegetarian multivitamin, kelp for sluggish thyroid (which, yes, I am self-diagnosing just as a test. I bet doctors love the internet for that kind of stuff. Heh.), and vitamin C for better iron absorbtion.
  • Keep on teaching, because I need the money. (Totally haven't told you yet that I got FIRED from my other stupid job, have I?? Doing a happy dance, doing a happy dance...but still need the money.)
  • Include 3 days a week of strength training. How many times have I said I would do this? If I searched the blog, it would be scary how many times I have said it but not done it. Scary, but not surprising. I'm the queen of saying stuff and not doing it. Ask my 3-year-old, who for some reason thought we were going to Chuck E. Cheese's today. But that doesn't count because I didn't understand her when she asked. I thought she was asking if I liked cheese.
  • Possibly...possibly...start running. I know. But I need some cardio that is not Zumba. I need a new challenge. I hate running. If I come up with something else that isn't too painful, I will go with that. But for now, that's the plan. I'm hoping to include my 10-year-old, since soccer season is just about over and she might want something active to do besides chase the puppy around the neighborhood with a poo bag.
  • Eat well. Not super strict like I tried last week--that was a long, miserable week. I even drank unsweetened soy milk. Gross. But well, enjoying what I eat and appreciating God's bountiful creation. Using food as fuel.
  • Getting off the soy dependency. It's everywhere when I'm eating vegan--soy milk in my cereal and coffee. Soy tempeh on my salad. Soy tofu in my sandwhich. And I read something today that said that for people with a crazy thyroid--I can't remember if it was hyPOthyroid or hyPERthyroid so I'm just gonna say a crazy thyroid--soy can be bad. So, while I'm not sure there really is anything wrong with my thyroid, I'm going to work this into the plan as a test, kind of like the kelp.
OK that's the plan. Let's see if I can stick with it until I get to the doc again. God knows I suck at plans. So the final part of the plan is getting on my knees every single morning and begging Him to be, in me, all the things I am not on my own. Organized. Disciplined. Hard-working. I could go on...but you have better things to do than read about all the things I suck at, do you not?

OH and we all know that bribery works wonders, so here is my little reward plan.
  • Lose 5 pounds (Starting small here, I know. This time last year, five pounds would have come off in like a week. Well not really, but close.)
  • Lose 10 pounds
  • Lose (can I??) 15 pounds
  • Lose (dare I think it??) 20 pounds, bringing me to high-school weight
  • Lose (why not?) 30 pounds a whole new stinkin wardrobe. As in, $600 shopping spree. that only thin people can shop at. Yeah. Yeah! Any suggestions?

betcha can't watch this while sitting still

Is this video working for you? Because apparently my computer is set to not watch embedded stuff. Grr... must check...

more soon, really. No really!! Maybe? ;)


Friday, May 08, 2009

a bitty bitty blue morpho-looking butterfly

It was so sad; someone had touched its wings and it couldn't fly. :( My daughter just kind of left it on a branch to die.