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Thursday, January 19, 2006

snowman



here are my kids, with the snowman they built with their dad. so cute! just thought i'd throw that in there before i shut off the computer for the day. :)

6 weeks and counting

well, not much to post about lately. i have a couple of jewelry shows coming up, one tonight and one next week, that i'm pretty excited about. i hope i get to do a lot more shows once i'm on maternity leave. they're so much fun, and it's pretty easy money for having a night out with a bunch of other girls. :)

speaking of maternity leave, i figure i'll take off in another 3 or 4 weeks. hm, guess i should get my paperwork done. :) it's a little intimidating, all this paperwork to make sure i get paid while i'm gone. but i am so excited! not just about having the baby, which of course has me thrilled (and, ok, a little nervous--can i handle 3 kids?! lol) but about getting back to the gym! man, i got a look at my thighs today (they're usually hidden beyond the horizon of my belly, lol) and nearly died! hm, maybe i'll have to take before-and-after pictures of my posterior for posterity. :)

the girls are getting excited too. this poor baby is going to have one daddy and three mommies. my almost-4 year old sings to my belly all the time, so cute!

i went to a girlfriend to get my hair lopped off the other day. pregnancy syndrome, y'know. :) i just couldn't stand it anymore; the hair needed to go. it was in the way. hubby, who would have my hair down to my butt if he had it his way, was very gracious when he saw me. just smiled, and said it looked nice. :) so sweet, but what else is he going to say to his hormonal pregnant wife?! hehe

ugh, i have to start counting down better. i started saying "6 weeks left" at 6 and a half weeks, so now i'm like, "it's still 6 weeks?!" well anyway, exactly 40 days. how cool is that? come out baby, we're dying to meet you!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

happy birthday to hubby!

today's my hubby's birthday! i told him yesterday that i'd get up nice and early and make him a big breakfast but of course that didn't happen. every night i wake up around 2, make a potty run and then doze off and on until about 5, when i sleep soundly until the kids get me up around 7:30. so hubby gets up for work right in my sound-sleeping time. :) poor thing; i made him a nice dinner though. his favorite, sesame chicken. and we had ice cream cake for dessert.

right now he's out with the kids at church listening to a missionary family talk about their work in cambodia and making ice cream sundaes. we went to hear them on monday and they were really interesting but i was too wiped out today to go. my little one and i were out all day with food shopping and my latest doctor's appointment so i begged off, telling hubby that if he took the kids and let me rest, maybe i would have enough energy later to give him a birthday backrub. :) unfortunately i've spent the last hour and a half not resting but cleaning up and getting out the old bassinet. now i'm super sleepy, and my back hurts. :) i can't wait for this baby to be born!

only 7 more weeks, by the way, and--you guessed it--still no name. our older daughter asked today if God knows a good name for our baby and i said i think so but so far he's not sharing and hubby said well he'd probably share if we'd just sit down and listen. true, true!

anyway name decisions aside, i am so freakin excited about the baby i can't stand it! i can't wait to be home, with the baby and the girls and my hubby, cleaning the house and cooking and changing diapers and playing... this from the girl who always wanted a career first! funny how God can be like, uh, no, that's not what i have in store for you honey. :)

ok got to go take the bassinet stuff out of the dryer and then hop into bed. zzzzz....

Friday, January 06, 2006

rant--you might want to skip this

oh my goodness i am so irritated, but of course it had to come sometime; every couple fights, right?

hubby and i fight oh, every nine months or so. when we first got married it was a lot more frequent, but after we got used to the actuality of being married we started fighting a lot less. for the most part i see us as a team, as a good team too, but then something like this comes up.

it was about money. it always is.

i bought face cloths. you know, to wash your face? cuz i was sick of seeing the same face cloth in the shower for a week before it got washed. but i came home from work and hubby was there folding clothes, including the face cloths, and he's like, what're these? why'd you buy them? we have face cloths?

ok the ones we have are like ten years old, all bleach spots and holes and worn out and worn down and i thought it would be nice to have something nice and pretty and fluffy to wash with instead of those nasty-butt things, especially since they were only five bucks for ten of them. but did i say any of this? of course not! i just sat there rolling my eyes like i was sixteen again listening to my parents lecture me about something and was like fine, fine fine, whatever, ok, i get it, can i go now? the thing that bugs me is what does he want me to do? i can't take them back to the store, when i apologize all he does is shake his head, then when i think it's over he starts yelling at me again!

i really want to know what is really going on. like, ok, my hubby is very even-tempered, and on the occasion that i do something stupid, he's usually content to talk to me about it (especially over five freakin bucks) and last night it was like he wanted to fight, which is so unlike him. when i pick a fight, he's all avoidance. so i figure he must be under some serious stress which i can understand perfectly because we are on a seriously tight budget this month but for cryin out loud!

i used to spend money like crazy. really. to think about it now, how thoughtlessly i would buy stuff, it just makes me nauseous. so ok, i prayed about it, and God has really taken away that desire to buy buy buy and aquire more stuff all the time. but last night hubby just made it sound like i haven't changed a bit, that i just don't care, and that's what really pissed me off and made me sad. i thought at the time that i was making a wise (ten for five bucks!), family-friendly (now we don't have to wash our face with sandpaper!) purchase and i totally got shot down. so now i feel totally not respected, like how dare i go spend any of our money when i only make like a third of what he makes.

and the worst part was we went to bed still un-made up. he totally avoided touching me all night long, which, to my eight-months-pregnant self was kind of a good thing cuz i had plenty of room and actually slept but was, again, totally unlike him. usually a good fight means good make-up sex, for cryin out loud!

oh well, whatever. i'm going to go clean the house so maybe that will start to make up for it, since saying sorry obviously wasn't good enough. then i'm going to wash my face for the third time today with a brand new face cloth just so he knows they'll get used and aren't a waste of money. God, please take away these spiteful thoughts and leave just the repentant ones!

grr.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

happy new year!

happy new year everyone! i hope anyone reading this enjoyed their holidays as much as i did. the fam and i went to my dad's for dinner, and we met his girlfriend. i am so excited; my dad has only had one girlfriend since he and my mom split years ago, and she didn't last long. i hope this one does; she's very nice. it was weird though; my dad had women's products in his bathroom! :) anyway dinner was very pleasant and my dad was noticeably happy, which is an improvement over some past dinners.

the kids got way too many presents, as usual. i'd like to go through all our stuff and set aside the things that the girls don't play with, but that might wait until after this baby goes through them. i'm going to keep trying though; that baby will get enough toys of his own with every birthday and christmas that comes along. let's donate them to kids who don't have anything.

on christmas eve we went to my hubby's parents' house so we could see them and my brother in law before they left on their cruise. hm, maybe instead of a y membership next year they can get us a cruise! :) then we went to my mom & her boyfriend's house for munchies and presents. my sister and brother were there, yay! but my sister had her friend-with-benefits there with her, and i know she says things are ok with them but i worry about her. she doesn't need to be going out with someone with a drinking problem. who does? i'm worried that even though he's been going easy on the drinking since they talked about it, things won't stay like that for long and she'll get hurt. :(

on new year's eve we went to church for a candlelit service (oh yeah, let's cram 300 people into the sanctuary and give them all lit candles, ugh where's the nearest fire extinguisher?! at least it got my 4-year-old's mind off of her suddenly-realized fear of rooms full of too many people) and then my sister and brother's apartment to play board games. the kids all got to play together, and while the plan was to put them in bed by 10, they were right there with us to count in the new year. :) they were actually doing better than me; from about 10:30 on i kept checking my watch, saying, "is it 12 yet?" we had a really great time (i kicked butt at who? what? where? LOL) but we didn't get home until 1ish and then we were up all too soon the next day.

we had a party at my uncle's house first, which was nicer than i though it was. must be because we didn't stay long. :) it was good to see my sis and brother again, and my mom, but i have practially no relationship with my aunts and uncles. my hubby didn't believe it when i told him this, but when i call one of them (on the extremely rare occasion i would have reason to do so) this is how the conversation goes:

"hi auntie so-and-so, this is kimberly."
"who?"
"kimberly my-last-name. my-mom's daughter."
"oh, oh yeah, hi!"

sigh, so no, we're not very close. :) no way will i ever let my kids and their relatives ever get like that. i feel bad for my mom, cuz i know she doesn't like things being like that. she always wanted us kids to be close with our relatives. i think it was kind of inevitable though. she came from a family of townies, and she got out & away from all that.

next was a party with one of my girlfriends from church. the kids had a blast playing with all the other kids that were there, and it's always good to be in the company of our church friends, but it was nothing super exciting. of course, that might just be because i was really starting to crash...i think i was in bed by 8 that night. :)

speaking of sleeping too much...only 53 more days til this baby is due! poor thing, we still haven't settled on a name. have i mentioned before that i'm pretty sure it didn't take this long with the first two kids? i hope he doesn't take that as a commentary on being wanted; i am so freakin' excited about this baby coming, and so's everyone else. the kids are starting to get really excited; they must figure mommy's belly is about as big as anyone's could possibly get so the time must be near. :)

well i'm off; nesting is setting in, which gives me about 4 more hours of good cleaning time before i fall on my face from exhaustion. :)